Showing posts from June, 2013

Surprise Blessing & Transformed Life

I was in a high hissy melt down and phoned my husband, “Babe, we will be absolutely out of money at the end of the month.I have no idea how we will pay for two mortgages.I cannot ask my parents for another loan.I feel so stupid for moving before we sold that house.” He didn’t know what to do.The phone hung in the tense silence between us.After what seemed like an hour, I blurted out a phrase our pastor had used on Sunday, “God does things when we pray that He does not do when we do not pray” Chris broke his stillness, “Why don’t we try that?”So, we prayed.We prayed a prayer of desperation.We plead, “Remember you said for us to Trust in you with all our heart and commit our ways to you and you would make our path straight and our way smooth? Proverbs 3: 5 – 6 NIV.Lord, we do believe you watch over us more so than the sparrows, but we don’t know what to do (Matthew 6:26 – 27 NIV). Please help us.Amen.” We were both weeping as we hung up the phone.
A week or so after that, a friend calle…

Not Looking for a Hiking Partner

After the second marriage disaster, I had nowhere to look but up.I turned my life over to God. Slowly, steadily He started putting the pieces of me back together.It was not because I deserved it, but most definitely because God is a good and loving Father who binds up the wounds of the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18 NIV). He cares for His children even when they are far off the road and are completely covered in mud in the ditch.He lifted me out of the mess and put me on a path to come closer to Him.(Psalm 40:2 NIV). Sometimes, He will put people in your way to help you on the journey.
When I wasn’t ready or looking, the serious, good-looking guy that had dumped seventeen years earlier waltzed back into my life.We started meeting.Once we went out on a Sunday morning.At the time, I felt conflicted because I really needed and wanted to go to church.It was the only place I could feel God’s healing presence.Going on a date instead of to church that Sunday made me feel like I had missed a dose …

The Cupcake

When I needed a break, I didn’t turn to God.I tried to do it on my own.All of my efforts fill up the void and find rest in human men ended in ashes.When my second husband proposed, it was easy to say ‘yes’. He was stable, a good provider, a reasonable daddy replacement, and funny.I reasoned with myself that it didn’t really matter that he wasn’t my idea of a romantic or that we had any mutual interests.He met the minimum requirements on the “Mr. Right” checklist.
Off to the wedding chapel I went.This time, however, I stopped by the liquor store on the way to the altar. I laughed all the way through the vows.Really!I know it’s definitely something out of a bad romantic farce, but it’s true.I think the situation comedy type of a relationship we had seeped into the womb as the baby cooked.
Ashley Jean Nolan came on the scene with equal parts of drama and laughter in the delivery room.As I was pushing her out, the placenta abrupted.The calm, cool doctor turned three shades of green, grab…

A Prayer Answered

Motherhood and Wifedom is the greatest adventure that I have ever inadvertently set out on.When I was a little girl, I never dreamed of being a wife or a mother.It wasn’t on my radar screen.I was more interested in climbing trees and pretending to be Elvis.Mommydom was not an expectation I had for myself.Up until three years ago, I didn’t really buy off on the whole concept. Responsibility, guilt, and shame overshadowed the joy of being a momma. It never occurred to me that I might raise my station from woman at the well to noble Proverbs 31 mother and wife.It would take a miracle.That’s the funny thing about God. He’s in the miraculous transformation business.Let me explain.
When I graduated high school, I had my heart broken by a good looking, serious type of guy.From that point on, I certainly didn’t want marriage or kids.I had my life planned out.I thought, “I’ll go in the Air Force, go to college, get the degree, go to work, make a bunch of money, and maaaaaaaaaybeeeeee consider …